it will be hard to let you go / i cannot explain why i haven't been feeling myself
i've had this one dream for awhile. it doesn't really matter what it is, but i have written about it once or twice on sand is overrated. for a long time, this dream was just that--a dream. it was something that i thought about from afar, but the chance of it coming true seemed so unlikely that it never bothered me when it didn't.
but then there was a time recently when it seemed...possible. in a way, i was even there for a brief moment, and being there only confirmed my desire to live in that dream. then in the realm of possibility, i set about trying to make the transition from possibility to reality.
but it seems that circumstances have transpired against me. my chances of realizing this possibility seem painfully unlikely, at least anytime soon, and these days i wonder if i wouldn't be better served to let this possibility fall back into a dream again, back to a place where it doesn't hurt when it doesn't come true. it will be hard to let it go, but at least i can still dream.
it's in this state that i found europe by allo darlin'. buoyed by jangly guitars and elizabeth morris' charmingly expressive voice, the album is nonetheless heavy on nostalgia (often to the point of regret) and melancholy (sometimes to the point of crippling self doubt). there are moments of revitalization, but i can't help but wonder if the singer really believes what she's singing in those moments, or if she's relieving pain by trying to convince herself that everything is going to be okay. obviously, i can relate, and europe is perhaps my favorite album of the year so far. perhaps that should come as no surprise given how much allo darlin' remind me, in almost every way, of my beloved camera obscura. sigh...
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