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Monday, January 28, 2008

sometimes fact, sometimes fiction -- the monitor

knowing when to call it off is always difficult. things never seemed that menacingly wrong, so irreparable that the solution was obvious, and yet there was always one corner that didn't quite fit--a defect in shape that seemed trivial only at first. when the pain became unbearable and i wanted to know what had to be done, i'd always find myself reflecting back on those times spent together that weren't so terrible. those glimmers of hope can blur the line between happy and sad to nearly unrecognizable dimensions, reminding me of the pleasantries on the surface while simultaneously illuminating what was missing underneath. it's called prolonging the misery, with each attempt to make myself feel bad only serving to complicate matters in my own head and heart.

one day in a typical fit of sentimentality i was looking at a picture of a happier time, two smiling faces looking through the screen with seemingly no knowledge of the inner struggle that lay within me both then and now. i was thinking so many thoughts, for so long a period of inactivity, that the monitor i was staring at suddenly turned to black. and what i saw reflected back at me was me, alone. and it was okay. and all of a sudden i knew--i was going to be okay.

tegan and sara : "call if off"
from the lp the con (sire, 2007)
i won't regret saying this
this thing that i'm saying
is it better than keeping my mouth shut
that goes without saying
call, break it off
call, break my own heart
maybe i would have been something you'd be good at
maybe you would have been something i'd be good at
but now we'll never know
i won't be sad
but in case i go there
everyday, to make myself feel bad
there's a chance that i'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

i won't be out long
but i still think it better if
you take your time coming over here
i think that's for the best
call, break it off
call, break my own heart
maybe i would have been something you'd be good at
maybe you would have been something i'd be good at
but now we'll never know
i won't be sad
but in case i go there
everyday, to make myself feel bad
there's a chance that i'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do
i'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

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