the soundtrack of my life : sunset rubdown
from the album shut up i am dreaming (2006)
on my drive back down to orange county on sunday, i stopped off in monterey to visit the monterey bay aquarium since it had been a while since i had last been. after exiting the freeway, there is a tunnel in the city of monterey on the way to cannery row, where the aquarium is located. it's not a big tunnel, as tunnels go, but it is long enough to honk your horn to some effect. i think most people like driving through tunnels, if for no other reason than just the novelty of it. after all, how often do you get to drive through one? but i think there's something else to it too. i think there must be a survival instinct inherent in all of us, preventing us from feeling truly comfortable in situations in which we are surrounded by an impenetrable wall on nearly all sides. though it may not rise to the level of consciousness, maybe there is a quiet fear, hidden just below the surface, that once you get into that tunnel you may never get out. perhaps there is a certain amount of excitement--of risk--that accompanies driving through tunnels...
anyway, i was thinking of none of this on sunday as i was driving through monterey. i had sunset rubdown going on my ipod and was listening to the last track, "shut up i am dreaming of places where lovers have wings", as i approached the tunnel. and just as i entered, the song went to the solo part at 3:13 (i don't even know what that is--guitar? keyboard?). thirty seconds of hyperactive chaos which just seemed to embody the tunnel--the claustrophobia, the feeling of being boxed in and assaulted from all sides, and the delicate order of the cars next to me that could very well be on the brink of spinning out of control. and it just made sense to me, this part of the song, at this particular instant.
i love it when that happens, when a connection is made with the art we love, in which a particular song or film or writing takes up residence in our everday life. when real life and make believe meet, in the middle of the vast expanse which is the human experience, in which lines intersect and boundaries are blurred. it doesn't happen that often but i certainly recognize when it does. and for me, listening to this song will forever trigger the memory of this place, this time, this version of myself. the phone is ringing...shut up. i am dreaming
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